gara-gara PMS

13th of january was my last paper for final exam. I put so much effort for that paper because my carry marks quite low but I ended up disappointed by myself. At the very beginning, it went so well but after one hour later.. senggugut aku mula menyerang. Aku dah mula hilang focus. Tapi aku cuba sedaya upaya aku untuk kawal sakit tu dan hiraukan emosi aku untuk terus ‘give up maira.. kau dah tak boleh tahan lagi. It might be worse if you keep stand any longer’ No! I wont. But after another half and hours, Aku terus give up. aku betul-betul tak boleh tahan lagi. And what makes me feel upset is aku teruja bila dapat soalan sebab hampir semua soalan aku pernah jawab sebelum ni dan aku yakin aku boleh score.

Masa aku keluar dewan, aku nampak kawan baik aku tersenyum riang. Aku yakin dia boleh jawab. Tapi aku? Lain ceritanya.. Tanpa sedar, air mata laju mengalir tanpa dipinta. kawan baik aku cuba tenangkan tapi makin laju ia mengalir. Aku pun tak tahu kenapa. Saat itu aku perlukan someone yang boleh comfort aku. I did call him. But I couldnt reached him. So I called someone else that i knew very well.  Dia tak pernah gagal comfort kan aku. Thanks dude =) really appreciate..

Bila aku sampai bilik, aku terus tidur sebab sakit aku makin melarat. I cant even stand properly and when i laid, semua posisi tak mengena. Akhirnya, entah bila pun tak sedar aku terlelap. Lepas bangun baru okay sikit sakit tu tapi sedih tu masih berbaki. Hilang selera makan. efek dia dah macam orang putus cinta LOL :D Setiap yang berlaku ada hikmah nya. Aku just harap aku tak gagal paper tu. saat tu juga aku sedar, no matter how prepare you are, how smart you are, how confident you are, once Allah test you.. those means nothing. so, let always have faith toward Him and be strong =)


oh ya, i went to cuti-cuti malaysia few days back with my beloved family. now, i got more or less one weeks left before i'm heading back to campus. new semester. new story. new spirit. nanti bila dah balik campus mula la rindu katil ku yang empuk dan masakan mak huuuu. kbai :D